Heishin floated once again in a void that seemed to pay him a visit every night since he and his sensei, Junan, spoke outside the village walls. The void was seemingly endless, but the boy had realized by now that was not true in the slightest. There was a clear, Up and Down, to this darkness and heading in either direction would lead him to a mysterious place. He had seen both of the places, but he had only entered one of them. This time, he planned on entering the other place. The upwards path. When he had traveled to the other place it seemed natural, because within the mind he had grown accustom to gravity pulling him downwards. It was mentally exhausting to try and fight against what had been programmed into his brain, but there was a way.
Within the void the boy sat in a meditation stance and closed his eyes, not that it made a difference. He remembered what the other place had held for him. Memories of the past, good and bad. It was only an assumption, but what he had to do was very clear in his mind. He had to let go of all of himself to get to that higher place again. The things that bothered him most, and the things that he felt attached to.
"Junan..." The most recent addition into his life, and his ticket to freedom. He had to forget him, not for good, but for a moment.
"Sister!" She had been taken from him... It as the reason he was with Junan in the first place. He'd give it all up to go home with her though... Home...
"Mother...?" What was wrong with her... She was sick? Hurt? Suffering?
It took a while for Heishin to let this one go, because more than the others it caused him to wonder. The pain of losing his sister, and the harshness of his sensei made them easy to ignore within the void. However, his mother had made everything possible for him. She had done nothing wrong. He had no reason to forget her, and she was suffering. How could he abandon his own mother? "Mother... I'm letting you go. For you are my greatest cause of sadness."
It wasn't long after that Heishin lifted his head. He couldn't tell if his eyes were closed or open, but it didn't matter. He could see it, faintly. A small star shinning in the void. He didn't, or rather couldn't, look away from it. It was the only thing that mattered to him right now because it made him happy. Then he focused on the small star and slowly, he could feel himself drifting towards the white starlight. The small start grew bigger and brighter with each passing eternity that Heishin felt he was living. If he stopped focusing he could just live for ever in the light, but instead he kept moving towards the intensifying rays. Very soon, like a tunnel, he emerged from the light and he was in a completely different scenery.
The green grass on a level plain seemed to stretch on forever in all directions against a crystal blue sky. The sky itself seemed to provide the light for this place, because there was no sun or noticeable light source. It was just bright. Directly in front of Heishin something stood out. A green hill rose from the level plain. He walked towards it, and up it until he reached the top. From the top he noticed something spectacular. Butterflies were roaming the plains. Why hadn't he noticed them before.
There was something else at the top of this hill, and it resonated with everything. It was the center of this realm, it was the life of this realm, it was the keeper of this realm. It wasn't a god, or a being, but a simple still puddle. Upon first glance the puddle looked shallow, but staring down on it from above you could see no bottom. The water was crystal clear, and any mans gaze could penetrate the still waters, but there was just no bottom. A hand reached out to the water. It's feeling was non existent, almost like a mirage. The waters didn't even ripple from his touch. He removed his hand and looked deep into the water, trying to find any indication of a bottom or side. Nothing.
After a while Heishin finally relaxed in the place, and a few questions crossed his mind, like, where was he or what was this place. He had nothing else to do there, so he finally asked one of the questions aloud. "Why am I here?" At first nothing happened, but then a ripple converged from the edges of the waters and a small drop rose into the sky. The butterflies began to gather to the lake, and Heishin had no other choice but to look back down inside. A vision of sorts over came him, and several visions flashed through his mind at an accelerated pace.
In the darkness his sensei loomed over an unsuspecting victim and murdered them with no thought at all. The blood was everywhere. Heishin found himself trembling now within his dream. His vision continued on to the victim. Initially, there was nothing for him to see, but soon enough he could see the victim and the tears rushed from his eyes as the color fled his skin. It was his sister lying in a puddle of blood. Heishin somehow entered the scene and kneeled over his sister before he hears a whisper. It was her whisper. "Heishin... Mother... She's..." In an instant he turned around and saw his mother against a tree. He was paralyzed, and his sensei slowly creeped towards her. He couldn't do anything... Then a loud scream echoed through his vision and the images of his sensei torturing his mother played before him. It was all he could take before his mind felt as though it was ripping in two.
He awoke, sweating and panting in his bed. He had to leave, to get away for a while. He couldn't stand these dreams anymore. They were killing him mentally.
In the midst of the night he packed up his things, and left a note at his bedside for his sensei to find later.
- I'm afraid I need to leave this training behind for a while to allow myself to relax a little. Lately I have been mentally distressed, so much that I can hardly sleep at night. The thoughts of my mother and my sister... I just need to take a break. I'll try not to be gone too long, but if I am don't look for me. Just know that I will be ok. Have faith in yourself, for you have taught me well. Have faith in me, for I am your student. And have faith in God, for he will watch over us both.
With the note now completed he traveled to the workshop and went to the corner to pick up a special scroll. It contained two basic katana that he had bought recently for his training, but now he felt they would be of better use with him. Maybe he would need to defend himself from something? Who knows.
Using a window Heishin let himself out of the house into the cool night air, back pack loaded and scroll in hand. Then he wandered through the streets and thought of a way to get out of the village. He had done so many times before, but this time he wasn't coming back immediately and so he had to sneak out of a different part of the village. Also, he didn't want his sensei following him. The business district made that easy for him, as he could sneak out of one of the trading stations. It was true what Junan said after all... Yukigakure was a friendly village and there was much less security that there should be on its' border.
"Ignorance." The thought flashed through his head while he walked away from the villages' border.